Paul pleaded with God three times that the thorn in the flesh that was given to him would depart, which was a messenger of Satan to buffet him, unless he be exalted above measure, And Jesus said, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness" So Paul said, I most gladly would rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me."
~ Paraphrased from II Corinthians 12:7-9 ~
Have you been in a situation recently where someone's actions crossed the boundaries of authority?
Have you been in a situation where you had to address the issue?
Well, to answer these questions, this is what took place for me yesterday. I did not want to address it at all. Before addressing the issue I prayed that the Lord would speak to this person about it, not me...but it was something that the Lord wanted me to walk in. He wanted me to walk in obedience, assisted by His boldness and driven by His love.
After the issue was addressed it did not go as I had hoped; actually it did not go as I hoped or imagined. I was told by this beautiful person that I should have prayed to the Holy Spirit to minister to their heart, versus me addressing it. The heaviness I endured before I addressed it was so burdensome...but as soon as it was addressed, the peace of God came upon me and the heaviness was gone!
Now let me say, the thoughts did try to rule over me that I should not have said anything. The regrets pulling and yanking me; attempting to carry me away into the pit of despair and depression. I wanted to crawl into bed and ask that I would be allowed to do the day over again. But then, I think now, if I had it to do over again, would I disobey God to make my life easier? It wouldn't be worth it.
I may have lost a relationship at this time; but you know what I was able to gain? So much more insight from the Holy Spirit. The Spirit of God lovingly rebuked me beyond what I could have dreamed or imagined. I learned that when addressing this person on what they had done, I was reminded what I have done to others more often than I would like to admit.
I had to make a few phone calls to apologize for misusing God's zeal. I had been zealous for what I believed, but did it with prideful motives and was not motivated by the love of God, in which it caused hurt and pain.
This morning I received a text from my dear friend Julie who wrote, "Grace. It has been put on my heart to share with you. Let me know what God reveals to you. I love you."
Upon receiving this text, I prayed and thanked God for His grace. His grace is like a 'ski lift'. To get from one side of the mountain to the other, bringing us across. We still must go across but His grace is like that ski lift. That grace allows us to rise above sin and endure.
After receiving this text, I called my husband and asked if he would pray over me. I did not share with him what had happened, I did not share the text with him either and out of his mouth poured forth these words, "God's grace and peace be upon my wife. Lord I thank you that anything that tries to hinder her from insight from You God, You dispel in the name of Yeshua (Jesus)." As soon as he said these words, I wept. He was concerned about what was going on and asked me to share. When I finally did share a little bit with him, he said, "Ok, Teresa, the Holy Spirit is like the wind, so release this as though you were releasing it into the wind and let God carry it away." When he spoke those words it was FINISHED! The tormenting thoughts that attempted to rob the Joy and Peace left; and the thoughts that remained were the beautiful thoughts of God over me.
I am reminded today that this person and so many others need us to reveal God's grace upon them. Just as we have received much grace we are required to give back.
In this learning process, I am so grateful for what has happened. For what the enemy has meant to destroy, God has been glorified as I am seeing evidence of growing pains in my life. My eyes were opened of what not to do to others and the reverberating power of abiding in Him. If I abide in Him, then His Words abide in me and it will be revealed walking in love, especially to the unlovable.